Experince this.

When you’re dating someone, it’s probably one of the most scariest things ever. You’re basically giving them permission to break the most valuable thing you have.. your heart. I hate that I fall so fast. This has been one of the worst experiences I have ever dealt with. I finally actually care about someone and they just up and leave and ignore me like I’m some empty shoe box in the closet. I hate this feeling. 

For the first time.

I’m actually feeling like I can count on you. Thats usually not that easy for me. I hate deepening on people, I haven’t even known you long enough, and thats okay. My walls are slowly crumbling down and I’m not even mad. This feeling is great, the dates are amazing memories, the kisses are incredible. I don’t wan an loose you because for the first time, i finally feel like Shawn and not cooliofressh when i’m with you... 

Never Mind, I’ll find someone like you.

These past few days have been overly stressful, For no fucking reason. Its one of the reason why I hate getting to know people, I always get too attached to them for no other fucking reason besides they make me smile. I hate that about myself. It drives me crazy, That feeling when you know it’s bot going right and you just don’t know what to do with your day because god knows what. I wanna just throw in the towel, but it’s hard as shit when you actually like someone. All i want to do is smile. I can’t though, which sucks because you’re the only that usually makes me smile. I don’t know whats going on between you & I, all I know is that I want tit to be how it use to be, you know like the other day :(  I hate letting people know how i feel because of this. It allows them to tear me down. 

P R I D E

I'm writing about this because I just recently put away my pride for a second, so I wanted to write about it a little bit.


PRIDE

1.

a high or inordinate opinion of one's own dignity, importance, merit, or superiority, whether as cherished in the mind or as displayed in bearing, conduct, etc.

2.

the state or feeling of being proud.

3.

a becoming or dignified sense of what is due to oneself or one's position or character; self-respect; self-esteem.

4.

pleasure or satisfaction taken in something done by or belonging to oneself or believed to reflect credit upon oneself: civic pride.

5.

something that causes a person or persons to be proud: His art collection was the pride of the family.

 

This 5 letter word has such a huge impact on our life, relationship and problems. It scares me how much pride some people have sometime, me being a Leo, I also have a lot. I recently learned to put it away for a second so you won't loose what you want. Pride is an amazing thing to have and I  and sorry for the people that don't have this quality. The word pride has destroyed so many happy home and relationships, It's crazy. I don't see how people let it get that far where it's to the point where you're just stubborn. Even though the person may be wrong, Just be the bigger person talk first... I'd rather try to work it out instead of loosing everything. You don't have to get to the point where you're just a pushover, just to a certain extent. :/ I'm all out though, this was just a pointless post lol. 

Weekend @ FIU

So, This labor day weekend I got the opportunity to spend time with one of my bestfriends, Alex. It's not quite over yet, However I just want to blog about it. It's going very well right now. She has introduced me to several of her friends around campus. DOPE SHIT, bruh. I took a few photos enjoy, I'll update later with more of them.